Day 13- for real now

Sooo after an exhaustingly fabulous night... which is what it was... I am still exhausted.

Ooooooh I have so many thoughts and emotions. Today was kinda a boring day so i think I'll skip the details and just move on too important funny things and like my thoughts.

Sooo Stef and Laura at dinner decided they wanted an alias for my blog so Stef is Zuzu and Laura is Lauren. hahaha I just thought that was cute. I'm really going to miss Stef because she reminds me of being back in Canada. She is just soo nice and makes me feel so comfortable. I really wish I could have gotten to know her better because she is leaving tomorrow. I would be lost with out Laura- so I'm so glad she is going to be here.
I may have posted this earlier but I thought it was so funny I'll post it again. Being that we are now Juniors here (i.e. in our third week) we feel it is our duty to haze the incoming freshman. So this is our plan.... Tell them that the Beer is completely contaminated and will make the foreigners sick so they have to stick to the tequila which is like water here compared to ours back home. However to avoid the hangover you have to come home and chug a glass or two of the tap water. HAHAHAH- It's so not funny because they would get so sick but we think it's hilarious. (People please- you know I'm not going to do that.)

So ... "She who cannot be named" actually pulled through tonight! I knew I could get her to budge. She came to dinner.. wow #1. Then she talked and mingled... wow #2. Phase get her to be nice to me commence... SO she was going into town to go to the bar and I just was not feeling it. So I offered to bring her leftovers back to the hotel for her. She was really nice about it. It was like a different person tonight- It was weird. Good weird but weird.

Hmmm.... Chris is leaving in the morning. I am sad. I also feel like I will have a lot more energy because he is sooo hyper all the time that I some times get mentally exhausted trying to keep up, but like at the same time- I LOVE him. He's been my pal here. I am sad though because he's my surfing buddy and lunch buddy and now who's going to mooch off me for Air conditioning. Who's going to go late night shopping with a flashlight with me. It's all very sad. OMG who's going to translate for me.... this could be bad. The next few post's might get interesting with me trying to fend for myself. Who's going to help me pick out my outfits... ahhh the list is growing...
He really helped me on my journey to self rejuvenation- he said things like.... "I laugh when you tell me you can't do things because look at what you've been through... you can do anything!" I honestly don't think he realized how much that means to me. He's like the brother I never had. Although overwhelming at times- You just can't help but love him. He may think that only he learned from me but I have learned so much from him too. There are so many other cultures out there and I need to broaden my horizons. He's just so cool and I can already feel the tears welling up inside. I'm really sad about it....

I finally got my spaghetti at dinner. It was SOOO good. I had lasagna for lunch though... hmmm maybe I should start that cleanse tomorrow. I think I will. Crankyness shall ensue....

Feelings and emotions... GO:

Sooo I think it's time to cut some strings. I made a decision and I said- it will either be the biggest regret & mistake of my life or the best thing I ever do. Well the truth is... I don't know which it is yet and I don't think I will know for a very very long time. I think trying to figure that answer out now is wasting precious time and I need to let the answer just come to me. Time will tell. I don't regret making the decision I made because I think inevitably it needed to happen for growth and experience. That being said... I dont know if I wanted it to be permanent. I truly believe that when things are meant to happen they will. So starting monday- I'm making the decision to cut the string and let fate take over.
It will be very difficult to erase the images that haunt my mind. I knew I had a problem when during savasana in yoga today... I was supposed to be thinking about what I was grateful for, and as soon as I reached my list of ten- there was one more thing that was significantly on that list. It was memories, and thanks, and just images that clouded my mind. So I'm making the decision... cold turkey. It will go hand in hand with my cleanse.

I can barely keep my eyes open so I'm sure this isn't making much sense. Anyway- sorry this couldn't be more entertaining. .... it's a shame I'm so tired- Maybe I should go visit Carlos at the pool and take a swim. I can't believe my second week is over. It has gone by SO fast. Like it's unreal. I really want to take poi lessons. I'm debating switching out the surfing for poi. My thoughts are... I can't surf that often- and I know how. I'm no Kelly Slater but I can hold my own. So why not now learn poi which is something I can do anywhere. How cool would I be at the bonfires... fire dancing? So ... more on that to come.
xoxo Off to get some sleep-
C